Today Lee and I were going to have dinner together and I was thinking about bringing up our lack of time together. In a way I didn’t want to put any pressure on him, because like Al’Sera said he is a father of two lovely boys and I want to give him space, but on the other hand I just don’t want to continue like this. I had given Pete a call and asked if we could do movie night another night, because I wanted to be with Lee alone.

As soon as Lee walked through the door I was so happy to see him and my doubts kind of went flying out the window. I am so in love with him. He told me that he missed me and that he wished he could see me more often. I thought it was a good opening to tell him that I felt the same way and that I canceled the movie night so we could spend some time together.

I have the tendency to think a lot, or as Michael used to say ‘over-think’ or ‘over-analyze’. This weekend that is exactly what I have done; think a lot. It all started when Lee gave me a phone call to say that he had to cancel our Friday night because he had to work an extra shift. I was so disappointed, because I had been looking forward to it all week. I already knew that I would not see him on the weekend, because he was taking the kids to some family reunion. I felt down and usually when I feel that way other crappy thoughts flow into my mind.

Whenever I feel bad I try to keep myself occupied so I decided to go to the beach by myself. I did some snorkeling which brought me into another world and I truly enjoyed it. Sometimes I wish that I was a fish and could live in the ocean permanently. Whenever I can’t swim for a day or so I stand under the shower for ages just to feel the water on my skin. The snorkeling kept my mind busy for a while, which was great. After that I just stayed on the beach reading a book and watching the sunset by myself.

The last couple of days have been entertaining again. I have had taxi’s and take-away food send to my house . I didn’t even know that you could order take-away food on this island, but thanks to Annie I now know that you can. I also seem to receive a lot of information and folders in the mail that I have never asked for. Poor girl must have nothing better to do than to plot and plan silly things to annoy me. When is she going to give up?

For the last two days I have worked in the gym behind the reception. Not entirely voluntarily, but it was fun nonetheless. Tony could not work due to circumstances so Lee was taking over his boxing session. I thought that was great because I would finally have a boxing session with Lee, but no… It didn’t work out that way. Since Lee was doing the boxing session they didn’t have anyone behind the reception. Since working the reception in the pool is a small part of my job Lee thought I was perfect to fill the gap. I honestly didn’t feel like working there in the evening because I have to get up at 5 am, but it didn’t take Lee much to change my mind. How can I say no to him? He said that I wouldn’t regret it…