Today Lee and I were going to have dinner together and I was thinking about bringing up our lack of time together. In a way I didn’t want to put any pressure on him, because like Al’Sera said he is a father of two lovely boys and I want to give him space, but on the other hand I just don’t want to continue like this. I had given Pete a call and asked if we could do movie night another night, because I wanted to be with Lee alone.

As soon as Lee walked through the door I was so happy to see him and my doubts kind of went flying out the window. I am so in love with him. He told me that he missed me and that he wished he could see me more often. I thought it was a good opening to tell him that I felt the same way and that I canceled the movie night so we could spend some time together.

I told him that there isn’t a point in having a relationship if you’re never together. I also made the joke that soon people would start to think that Pete was my boyfriend instead of him, because I spend so much time with Pete instead of with my own boyfriend. I almost regretted saying it because I could see that my words had upset him. I think he gets the point though because he said that some things need to change. I guess time will tell if things are going to change or not. He knows how I feel, so I’m going to leave it up to him now.

The rest of the evening was great. It is so nice to be with him without other people around. I just wish it could be like this all the time.